Everything matters

A heightened level of sensitivity in the body is something I can vouch for. It simply happens, when the body is left with its own intelligence. The driver (ego, self) is the one who dumps the impulses from the outside and superimposes to them the impulses from himself. The result is dumbness.

But, once this is gone, EVERYTHING matters. The state of human affairs is as vivid and as palpable as would be the boiling oil spilled over your skin.

Matter a fact, UG once said he feels people thoughts “like other people feel humidity”. And that is something I know very well. I suffer enough because of that and I would do anything to avoid it.

There is no sure way to know what people are thinking and feeling in particular, with all the details. But in general, an enlightened body can feel the direction of those thoughts, their shape or taste. The enlightened body can smell them, just like you would smell the rotten garbage pile in your neighbor’s backyard.

That’s why I found strange UG lack of concern for what will happen to humanity. I could easily agree with him that we are the worst species ever (at least the worst we know about). There are none so bad and so dangerous as us. Also, I could easily agree with him that we are doomed and that there is no salvation for monsters like us.

If I would say any word or show any action towards helping humanity, towards creating a better world or some such things, it would be only because I am sick from what people are doing. It’s not just a word, I literary get sick when people are suffering. I have a headache when some bastards wipe out a village full of women and children on the other side of the world. God, I feel constant discomfort because people are torturing animals, and I do smell the rotten content of zillions of their intentions and actions.

I do close my “windows”, though. I am trying to cut myself out of all this. I am running away, living in deserted places, trying to find something that will protect me from people. But, there is no escape! I can lessen the impact of the very existence of so many people, but I can not avoid being in pain due to so much suffering they cause, to themselves and to others.

You see, it is not a matter of morality. It is not a matter of compassion. It is a matter of trying to live free from misery!

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